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new flares..it’s always somethin’!

I had my first ‘smell flare’ this week. Smells have been taking over my world for the last couple of years. So much that my family makes fun of me and my spidey nose!  But this was off the charts horrible. I’ve never had a flare caused by something around me (other than the weather) so it was quite new and a little freaky to me.
I could tell the man was wearing too much cologne the minute he walked into our little office. I was in the back and didn’t know how strong it was, until he was taken into one of the guys’ offices near my desk.
The eyes started to water, the nose started to get itchy and my whole body started to feel tired and down right lethargic all of a sudden. I thought my allergies were acting up so I took my allergy medication. 1 1/2 hours later I was in major pain and my whole body felt ‘thick’. I went outside and sat in the sun hoping to alleviate some of the problem. The only thing I could figure was it had to be that cologne. It was overwhelmingly strong. Even to the other gyrl in the office, who does not have a ‘spidey nose’!
I had to sit outside and wait for him to leave until I could come back in the office and even then, the scent lingered so badly that my head stayed full of fog and pain. Luckily it was towards the end of the day and I was headed home shortly.  The fog hung on until the next morning.
Who knew that just a strong scent could make your body react in such a very bad way?!
It’s always something new in fibroland, isn’t it?!

a little comic relief…at my expense!

This has nothing to do with fibro but thought it could provide a little comic relief!

I’ll start by saying I think it’s highly unfair that we, as women, must wear pantyhose/tights/ or any other restrictive, hot, sweaty garments! haha
This morning I put on pantyhose under my new, cute, little skirt and headed out to work. I knew the hose were a little too small…but I didn’t have another black pair so I wore them anyway. On the way to the 2nd bus stop I was literally walking out of them.  The waist had moved down below my booty, rolling off. I went into panic mode. I couldn’t adjust them in the middle of the parking lot in broad daylight so I went into the gas station, waited for the restroom for literally 10 minutes on some guy that flushed the toilet 6 times, and removed them, then I walked across the street to CVS to buy another pair. As I was walking into the bathroom to put them on, I saw my bus go by. I almost cried. I had no choice. I got to walk to work this morning! haha The upside is I’ve lost 10 pounds in the last few weeks and this will hopefully add another pound to the that number!


oops…sick day!

Well, I started the new job on 1/31 and my first sick day was 2/28….that’s not good! Not even one full month did I make it. Oops! Not like I had control over it. It is what it is. But it sure scares me for the ‘reference’ he may provide to a new company in the next 2 months (since it’s temp through April). I truthfully could’ve easily have 2 or 3 sick days during the last 29 days but pushed through and made myself go sit at that desk and be bored to tears while feeling like hell.

I have to think in terms of ‘YES! I made it that long!’ Instead of the hard honest truth that I should’ve easily been able to make it through the whole 3 months of the project without having to call in sick. I’ve only been working a short time but I already dread going back the next day when I feel bad. I remember not minding work, it was fun at times and I honestly didn’t mind having to go day in and day out. Those days are over. Well, maybe I’ll get one week or so out of the month when I feel that way..let’s hope. Or maybe when I find something that I know is permanent, I’ll feel better about the situation.

I’ll keep working on that positive thinking that I have down so well. yes, that’s pure sarcasm. I guess all I can say is ‘oops…a sick day’ and ‘let it be.’


fibro related or age related?!

Do you often find yourself asking ‘is this from age or fibro?’ I feel like I do this with every little thing. Of course had I never gone to the Dr in the beginning, I’d still be believing that all of this madness is just aging.

My eyes are changing, I now need reading glasses. I”ve always had 20/20 vision! Never had glasses. My whole family wears them, but not me. Until now!

My hearing does funky things..sometimes one ear just ‘stops working’ haha! It gets very muffled and I cannot hear out of it for a few hours to a few days. Or my ears ring alot.

My hips hurt terribly after sitting or walking too much.

My teeth have new issues. I didn’t have a cavity until I was 32 years old! But now…every little thing hurts, I have 5 cavities and a root canal in progress.

I can no longer handle the foods I used to devour every day…due to spice, acidity, yeast, sugar, casein, well you get the picture!

So how do you know if these things are just age appropriate things happening to you or if the fibro beast is rearing it’s ugly head?! Does it really matter I wonder? It’s not as though you are going to be able to stop them either way. If it’s getting older then you just deal with it…you cannot turn back the clock or stop moving forward in time. If it’s fibro..there’s no cure, there’s probably no specific medication that will stop alot of these things from happening to you. Yet somehow I cant’ stop asking myself…is it age or fibro causing these things?


I’m calling it a beef hangover…

We had a bad craving for some beef last night and since I’ve only had it in small quantities for the last year I decided it’d be alright to splurge and have a deliciously succulent prime rib cut.

We really wanted Texas Roadhouse but since they are so far away out here in Cali we settle for the next best thing, Outback.  After an enjoyable dinner and an insanely full belly of prime rib, garlic taters and salad and bread we came home to watch movies.

The headache started about an hour after being home. The stomach gurgling and feeling ill started shortly after that. Oops, I overdid it. But it sure was tasty!

I tossed and turned all night and hurt like I don’t remember hurting in a long time. Everything hurt, all night. This morning I woke up to a full head, pain in areas you don’t wanna have pain in and every inch of my body hurts in one way shape or form. The shooting pains in my arms and legs feel like someone lit firecrackers INSIDE of me and they are all exploding at the same time.

I’ve done nothing else wrong, so I’m blaming the delicious beef and calling it a beef hangover. I knew better. Sometimes you have to give in to your cravings, so long as you’re prepared for the aftermath!


it’s always something, isn’t it?!

So my self diagnoses only work part of the time, of course. I’m not  a Dr, I don’t pretend to be however I do know my body better than anyone else so sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t…..I think we all do it. We cannot run to a Dr every single time something ‘new’ appears or we think something changed, because it’s literally ALWAYS something!

I got a grip on the headaches FINALLY. I’m pretty sure they are cluster headaches which really stinks cuz there’s really nothing I’ve found to get rid of them. They hang on for dear life for days and then they vanish as though they never existed. I did find that cutting out all casein during the week that they are around makes them less intense, so that’s good news. I tried all my fancy headache pills during that week and not one of them worked. I do have this on my list of things to chat with my new Dr about however. Hopefully there’s something out there I haven’t tried! haha yeah right!

I think I got a jump on that cold that was sneaking up on me, I overloaded on vitamins and it never became a full blown cold. Maybe I got lucky, or maybe the vitamins really worked. We never really know though, do we? We can assume for now and we can try the same strategy next time but I’ve found that the same thing rarely works twice when it comes to fibro!

I got attacked by the famous ‘rib pain’ this week, which is always such a joy to discover when you wake up. It’s as though someone took a baseball bat to both sides of my body and hit me over and over again, right on the ribs.  This one I have yet to find a ‘cure’ for. It’s a nasty predicament as it hurts to move, stretch, turn or even lie still. I’ve tried rubbing the pain away, to the point of tears. I’ve tried heat compresses, hot showers, yoga. Nothing seems to work. So I just wait this one out and luckily it only hangs on for a couple of days. It’s moved from the front, underside of my rib cage to the sides, under my arms. Ouch. The wife and I joke about who beat me in my sleep…was it her this time or the dog?!

I still give mad props to my Magnesium and my B-100 complex. I’ve tested this theory many times, usually by accident, by not taking them for a day or two, and again…it could be coincidence but the pain levels seem to be lower when I take them.  I asked the PA to test my vitamin levels when I saw him a few weeks ago and I received the results. They were in the ‘normal’ zone, but more toward the lower end so I’m guessing that without taking them every day I would have fallen into the deficient zone. I’m going to increase my dosages a little now since I know that I’m not overdoing it! I’m hoping that lowers the pain levels even further.

Week 3 of the new job and I haven’t missed a day yet. A miracle I’m calling it! 😉 I am definitely tired everyday around 3pm but I push through it and the other little pains I get to experience. I did have one day this week that I really really really wished I could have called in, but I didn’t. I can do this! No one there knows of what I go through every day. Not a lot of people do. I don’t want their pity or their pretend understanding or their every insightful ideas on how to ‘fix’ me. It’s easier just to shut up and suffer in silence. Thankfully I have you all to vent to!

Today is my day off, so I’m still in bed, playing on the computer and cuddling with the dog, listening to bird sing in the other room. I love these days. I miss them. But it really is nice to feel like part of the world again, most days.

 


getting sick stinks!

Well, I’ve made it through week 2 of my new job…it’s been ok really. I’ve had some pain, lots of headaches, but all in all it wasn’t as bad as I anticipated.

But now I’m sure I’m getting sick, so we will see what happens with that!

I’m in the midst of self diagnosing my headaches and I don’t need a cold to mess with my theories right now! I think I may have some sort of casein reaction happening in my body.  If anyone knows anything about this, I’d love to hear what you know! I’ve cut off all casein for the last 2 days and I’ve had no headache after having one every single day for at least a week, until tonight I ate a cheeseburger and now yes I have a headache.  (Not to mention the insane stomach ache I got immediately afterwards….I’ll never learn!)  I hate headaches more than anything. They debilitate me in so many ways.

I changed my B-12’s to a B-complex after researching it for my Father’s shakes and this morning it looked like someone broke open a bright yellow highlighter in the toilet! haha! What a sight! I must say it freaked me out for a minute, then I googled it and viola….the B’s will do that to you! There’s no way I’m dehydrated as I drink at least 128 ounces of water a day. Anyway..be warned if you start the B-complex, which I highly suggest, you may have bright yellow urine!

I’m so not looking forward to waking up sick tomorrow! I’m so bummed! The weather is going to be so fabulous that I just want to go sit on the beach for awhile….hopefully I’ll feel good enough to do so. I don’t know how or why I’m getting sick..the weather has been consistent, I haven’t been around anyone ill, I take enough vitamins that I should have the immune system of a robot! Maybe it’s the Santa Ana winds blowing stuff around..I keep hoping it’s just allergies, but the allergy pills don’t seem to be making it better so we shall see what the weekend brings me.