Looking for a job just sucks. The economy, the fibro, the crazy interview questions, the even nuttier people giving the interviews. It just sucks. I have never in my life had such a hard time finding a job. I’m honestly debating starting a new blog about my interviews and the insanity that I’ve gone through in the last year.
Sometimes I wonder if they google my name and find my fibro stuff. I guess I should have used an alias in some places. Too late now. It’s out on the internet, there’s no getting it back now! haha
I had an interview this morning at 10am. I felt like pure hell when I woke up this morning and honestly contemplated rescheduling, but reminded myself I only have 2 weeks to find a job so I made myself get up, get in the warm shower, did some stretches and proceeded to prepare myself for yet another grueling interview. It took me over an hour to get ready and feel even remotely good enough to go. I pushed through the pain, the intense swollen feeling and the fibro fog, drove downtown, put my $2 in the meter and walked to the office. Five minutes later it was over. Yes literally, FIVE minutes. Why bother?!
If I’da stayed in bed instead, I’d feel a whole lot better right now. I’m waiting on calls from 3 different companies who all claimed to be making a decision last week. I’ve emailed, called and now am just still waiting, incredibly impatiently. I’m in a whirlwind.
A whirlwind of emotions about going back to work full time, about needing another car if I work too far away, about calling in sick to a new job, just a general, nasty, full of sand, whirlwind.
It WILL get better! It always does, even if only for a short time. I continually remind myself that the whirlwind will again stop and that life will look normal again someday, soon I hope!